Rylyn and I were getting to the end of our evening ritual of fussy time (I am going to cry because I am a baby and because I can). Rylyn can cry her heart out during the day and it wouldn't bother me (much). BUT, when I am tired, the cries are heart breaking and exhausting. We had bounced, walked, swayed, sung...etc. so I decided on my usual last resort, snuggle and shut my eyes. It is amazing how when you think you have had enough so has baby.
We drifted off to sleep together. How loverly. I opened my eyes, looked at Chris and passed her off. I said, "I am going to bed." I was probably sleep walking to bed. I barely remember last night (though I was up to nurse Rylyn). I was in bed for 11 hours total.
Rylyn has been smiling a lot today. I am mentally taking pictures of those smiles so that when I tire of our evening ritual tonight, I can hold her wailing little body in my arms, shut my eyes, see her smile and smile with love back, until it is time for both of us to doze off.
Bible Reflections:
Psalm 40:1-3 (New King James Version)
To the Chief Musician. A Psalm of David.
1 I waited patiently for the LORD;To the Chief Musician. A Psalm of David.
And He inclined to me,
And heard my cry.
2 He also brought me up out of a horrible pit,
Out of the miry clay,
And set my feet upon a rock,
And established my steps.
3 He has put a new song in my mouth—
Praise to our God;
Many will see it and fear,
And will trust in the LORD.
-Sometimes we all just need to cry. Maybe physical tears. Maybe words of desperation. Crying produces patience. Patience for an answer. Patience for our cries to stop. We can trust in God to replace our cries with a new song. We can trust in Him for an answer and to meet our need like a baby trusts in his or her parents...even if it is just waiting out the storm together. Praise be to God.
